its only january...

I've only traveled this new road in my journey for about a little over a month now and I feel pretty confident and victorious most days, but on the days that I forget the purpose for my year long no shopping quest, there is a certain failing aroma, dangling in the air all around me, just waiting to attack my skin...I do not like to smell like a failure, so I try to cover up the disgusting scent with some good, wholesome, sweet smelling love of Jesus:) Yes, folks. I said it. Cheesy? Why yes. True? Indeed, without a doubt. His perfect love and grace are crucial factors that play into my wiser, bolder decisions nowadays- to shop or not to shop? That is the question. So eat my words, Othello...I will choose to not, for only then will I become content and satisfied with what I already have; only then will I choose to serve myself less, and serve others more- with my money, my time, and all other resources that I have been given; only then, will I be willing to learn what it truly means to live in simplicity; only then will I pursue Jesus more and fashion less (no pun intended there- I don't intend to be fashionless, by walking around with a sack cloth over my body-although I have many days when that would be so much easier:)...I am learning to satisfy my material cravings with more substantial, more organic and fulfilling food- His word and His desires for my life...His plans and His pursuing of my heart:) I can definitely succumb to being a fashion victim and not have the latest and the greatest in the fashion industry, knowing that I am conquering a hungry monster within that's persuading me to veer off my and lose my focus on my destination...yes, I miss Goodwill and ETC...and yes, I know they miss me too:) We had a very successful business relationship:) But they understand my quest and my determination to change from within. They will wait for me, no matter how long it takes:)


P.S. so, just as a side note- my birthday is coming up....in......july!!! hahahaha JK!