Freedom in captivity

So I am holding myself captive from a world of fashionable treasures and I must say, that I have tried to escape a few times, but it seems that I am a pretty great warden:)
Last night, I had the privilege of leaving my home for a few hours, without any children to meet up with some friends at the mall...yes, the mall. Now, you have to understand fully, that this mall, does not possess a very high threat to my quest...I am actually afraid to call it a mall...for the fear that someone might pounce on me and correct me...its more like a...hmmm...umm...a little shopping center... w maybe two stores that are worthy enough to walk into? anyway, my point being, that under normal circumstances, I would not consider it a threat...last night, however, I walked into Wet Seal and Forever 21, which I actually like a lot, and while pretending to not be able to find my friends, I did browse through a few sale racks...ahh, the torment, the suffocating pain, the agony of turning away from a $ 2 shirt thats screaming so loudly, it deafens you! The back racks were gently holding a beautiful arrangement of gorgeous, big purses, and I zeroed in on...the one! yes...the one...you know when you find it! its begging you to be held, and touched and smelled and worn on your shoulder! I picked it up slowly, with trembling hands, and I said my heart wrenching goodbye, but not before I vividly imagined how it would look on my shoulder, almost feeling the weight of 20lbs I usually manage to get into any purse that is worthy of my shoulder:)
I quickly put it away, and shuddered at the thought of buying it...ashamed, I walked away feeling somewhat victorious:) it was hard, because the purse had me at hello...but I resisted the charm, and looked away...and I won the battle...so, feeling defeated at the thought of me trying to escape my own captivity, I found my friends and each one was holding at least one glorious item from the store...oh, well...I had found freedom in my captivity...freedom from the guilt I would have felt...freedom from the failure monster...freedom from that which could destroy my year long quest!